Running...

Why do you run?
Do you run away from the past?
Do you run away from your problems?
Or because you’re lost and cant find your way out?
No I don’t
No I don’t
No I’m not

Why do you run?
I can’t stop running because you’re gone
Even though I know you’ll never be back

Nor though I not know where you are…
But I just can’t stop running…
Cos my heart is aching…
And I don’t know what else to do…

I can’t find you yet I can’t keep you…away from my thoughts.

If I keep running wishing that you’re are not too far away

One day…if I will never stop… will I find you in my path...?

If I never stop running till the day I die…
Will I finally see you waiting for me at the end…?

Credits
Ashton. and the girl he thought of today.

Like this...

Some things I can no longer do alone...
Some songs I shall no longer hear...
Some things are gone but never forgotten...
Some of the most beautiful memories bring about nothing but pain.
Pain along with the memories that can be cast aside
but deep down below will never fade away.

Some people change and are no longer the person I used to know...
Blame is useless to pursue.
Don't destroy yourself. Be happy.
Not just u, but me.

Maybe now everything I do is but an annoyance.
I did nothing. Im just as not heartless.

A soldier no more

a-soldiers-cry will cease on 070907 ... no more silent tears from the soldier. cos he will no longer be one.
Some dreams come to and end.
Their dreams are our nightmare but someday we'll all wake up.

Sometimes different people dream of the same dreams...but in the dreams they play different roles...
Some people in their dreams live like tyrants and kings...
Some get caught in a nightmare and end up as slaves of those who dreamt of being kings...
But no matter how fcking powerful the tyrants are and how pathetically helpless the slaves are...
the situation is but a dream for one day we'll all wake up...

Burst the fcking bubbles of those who "Zi-High" and dream of being superior than others...cos when they wake up they'll find that they are the useless fools...they have nothing to hold on to and their desires become so strong they become fcking dreamers.
Wake up the poor folks who are suffering from the nightmare everynight for the past 18months of their lives. For in reality, we are the masters of our own lives.

Take me down if you can... for if im taken down so easily, im nothing but a fcking loser that they wished i was.

Resentment.
Ash

Jet - Look what you've done

Actually came across this song long ago, but never found out the title to download it.
Did so a few weeks ago...i like the sadness of the song.
The writer must be someone sad...who doesnt wanna let go of something... but yet is too tired of the sorrow that he has no choice...

The following lyrics are not the exact words..just from my faint memory...

Take my photo off the wall if it just wont sing for you...
Cos all thats left has gone away and theres nothing there for you to prove
Oh look what you've done you've made a fool of everyone...
Oh well it seems like such fun until you lose what you had won...

Give me back my point of view cos i just cant think for you...
I can hardly hear you say what do i do well you choose
Oh look what you've done you've made a fool of everyone
Oh seems like such fun until you lose what you've won..

my sketchy interpretation:

Just let me go if i can no longer make you smile
All the hope i have in our love has slowly begin to fade away and theres nothing else you need to do
don't you realise what you're doing so far is making a fool of the both of us
you'll only finally regret when u realise that the love we had is lost

I wanna think for myself again cos Im too tired of thinking for you.
You no longer ask me what should you do...oh well...you choose..
the way you're acting now is making a fool of the both of us
I hope it's been such fun for you until but its now its too late to realise what you've lost

Thats all for now! Pretty meaningful song to sing if u realised you're loving who somebody no longer loves you but isn't letting go for whatever reason...

Hope i'll never sing this song for you...

hah.

forgiveness is a hard thing. Im full of hatred. full of grudge. i try to forgive. but fcking no way. cos some people are fcking sick in the head and do not deserved forgiveness.
If there was a war. I'd shoot him in the balls... watch him bleed and wait for help and laugh my happiest laughter ever in my life. Probably after 30 mins when im bored laughing I'll shoot him in the head.
Some people are FUGLY so they need to go to the gym to make themselves feel better.
Some people make justify the use of vulgarities. for the fcking worst vulgarities used on him aint enough to pacify me.

Don't mess with me. I'll bring your career down into shambles.


On a lighter point of view, i caught the korean movie "daisy" on cable tv again.. probably the 3rd or 4th time i've seen this show but im still pretty fascinated.

The story is about an professional killer who secretly admires a girl in the daisy field in Amsterdam...she falls into the river one day while crossing a long tree trunk as a bridge...
The next day the lead character builds her a beautiful bridge so that she'd never fall into the river again.
The girl falls in love with the person who built her a bridge but doesnt know who he is...she leaves a painting on the bridge as a form of gratitude to the killer.
The killer follows the girl back to the city after she was done with her painting...and leaves a pot of daisy outside her apartment everyday...
One day, a policeman coincidentally patronizes the girl's face portrait stall and brings her a pot of daisy...She thinks that he is the one...and falls in love with the wrong man...

CB

some people deserve to die. not just die but burn in hell for fcking eternity after they die.
some people are so evil their whole family will suffer from karma. i hope his wife finds a gigolo and they fck like rabbits. and his son i hope he's stupid grows up to em3, takes drugs goes to normal tech and ITE and grow fat and stays a virgin for life.
What's his fcking problem deriving pleasure from my pain. KARMA is awaiting.
Fck off i'll never forgive that male bitch.

the unknown

who is there to support me..when im feeling low..
who will be by my side..
fade away..
I dont know what to say anymore
Nor what to do to bring things back
From i dont know when where or how i lost them.
wings are too wet and heavy to fly...

wont u think back and compare the happy moments we've spent?
think about what u really want..?